I think I need to run away.
All these things I can't bring myself to say.
All these feelings that I shouldn't tell,
So to my friends it's lies I'll sell.
I'm stuck in a world with so many opportunities
But I'm unable to form the perfect unities
This body aches with unsated desires
and this mind seeks love more passionate than fires.
At the same time it would like to be alone,
This world makes me weary to the bone.
I want to lay my troubled soul to rest--
To remove from this world yet another pest.
So I often hide in a secluded corner of my mind,
The one place where happiness is something I find.
But in this world I hate to open my mouth,
Because whenever I speak things always turn south.
They say I'm just desperate to get some action
But really I just need to get some traction
To get up off my hands and knees,
she's sick of me begging her, "Please!"
I know it's time that I moved on
But this whole time I loved something that was already gone.
All of these things I feel inside
Are follies that I need to hide.
So each night while you make your wish upon a star
I'll pretend I don't know who you are.
I'll look to places I cannot see,
I'll go to places I thought I would never be.
And now it's time for me to go;
Time I stopped feeding on dead feelings like a crow
because every day I search the same places
Every day I relive the same blundered chases.
It makes me look for a way to feel self-worth,
A thing I haven't dreampt of since my birth.
But even though I haven't found it yet,
I don't have any cause to fret.
Some things we can do without
If we work hard we can overcome our doubt.
In me this has yet to be done,
I've yet to check if I have won
I don't think I want to know
Just how quickly I could be brought low.
If you lose the price is a little too steep,
I wouldn't want to be cause for anyone to weep.
So I'll push myself every day,
I'll shoulder my problems to keep your tears at bay.